JANUARY 2026

God is like super good.

new year. new heart.

day 1 fast food free.

day 2 fast food free. thank you Cheryl for giving me dinner.

(i lasted 2 weeks btw)

scheduled my first reel, clap for me.

i wish i had my very own cameraman, and it can’t just be anyone. it’s like a camera man is a sidekick, they got to believe in the vision just as much as you do.

hey siri look up hero product and cult building marketing.

Lord i pray in all I do, i’m able to point people not to myself but to you and your kingdom. amen.

tadmod youtube channel up woohoo

i wish to find my mom’s old hymnal books. i think hymns are sonically amazing.

being an artist > being an influencer. the difference is perspective.

i gotta learn to be okay with the fact that my friends aren’t my audience.

America’s Best Wings is my weakness.

instagram makes me so ughhhhh. i just gotta die to self.

got this sudden urge to check in w a bunch of people, making sure these connections actually connect.

there was a time last year, a couple months i would go to the grocery store and would not be able to find onion powder. i could only find the granulated onion or the dried onion bits but not the powder and yes there’s a difference! but magically this year they came back. idk what happened but i know it was real.

gotta do a deep dive on the Gorillaz lore

the goal id love to get to is to only use socials on the weekends so i can schedule my stuff for the week, get my lil dopamine and interact with folks.

i yearn so hard for this life in my head

i want to be able to read a book, feel so emotional about it and write a song about it

im gonna keep taking pictures of myself till i like the way i look

there’s a certain type of recklessness i see with male artists that I admire. the thing is how does that translate to me as a woman? and what about being a man makes it so reckless.

i need to check if these inspirations i have will lead me closer or further from Christ, or can they help me express Godly things in a new way.

i wonder what Adam n Eve felt once they ate that fruit. like they did feel something change inside of themselves. especially when God issued the curse on Eve, did she feel her body chemistry changing?

bro i just watched happy feet, what a wonderful film.

at first i was like, what is so distinct about indigo that it got its own place in ROYGBIV…but as a navy blue enthusiast i kinda understand

i have never been someone’s first choice. i’ve never fit in. even in my sinful and worldly ways. never been chosen or picked. and i’m learning to be okay with that. God chooses me so that overrides everything I guess. but it also makes me wonder if there is something wrong with me

writing my own fictional stories as a child has equipped me heavily for this MF thing.

i feel like 2021-2025 have all been Year 0 for me career wise, like i never rl had a solid understanding of what to do, just trying things. 2026 is year 1 of my career officially.

now that i have a lot more black clothing, i see how easy it can stain as well, especially in the winter.