NOVEMBER 2025 ENTRIES

if creating is my worship to God, i really don’t care about the public’s perception of it. i don’t plan to make anything hateful…maybe controversial but I’m just expressing myself the way I know how.

11/10/2025

i feel like troy Bolton choosing between film and music.

i cant wait till i learn how to do a backflip

me and cherry dumdums are like deseee

i had my first car accident. i feel bad, i hurt Rain. and its gonna cost a lot to fix everything

was listening to panic island when it happened.

11/5/2025

if you think im making my well thought out video vertical, you got another thing coming buddy.

i need to find more musicians

how do musicians name their songs without any lyrics. like how did benny golson arrive at the name “stella by starlight”

i think what makes me not like social media is bc it has become a marketplace. it’s like going to Costco and seeing things i don’t need in abundance when im really just looking for a specific brand of breakfast sausages

i love Costco though

id like a space where i can look at niche things only and not in the context of “content” or “advertisement” just people sharing their thoughts and work and the process behind it.

and not in a self-help or ‘this should be your new way of life’ way.

as a musician i feel like for my own growth there are certain artists that i will never benefit from listening to.

i think i need to open my brain more to what the future holds in terms of art.

bro sometimes in efforts to get closer to people, i ask to cook with them. i feel like that’s intimate though, like entering your house for the first time, seeing the way you organize your pantry and fridge, seeing the different cutlery and plates you use more than others, the brand of seasonings you prefer, making something out of that and then taking your Tupperware home too?

i struggle with making long term goals bc the way God works with me, i could be on a whole different path in 6 months. there’s just no stability in my life right now, i embrace it though.

i just learned about blackheart and blight inside potatoes.

i want certain words in here to be hyperlinked…even if they lead to nothing.

i guess i just want my text to be blue and underlined?

any word on here i want to write a song about will be “hyperlinked”

Hyperlink

i have tailored my Instagram to show more Minecraft videos on it…nice

when i finally make and release my first song, i will make myself a makeshift Grammy

when i can afford that lifestyle, i’d like to learn more about bathing. not SHOWERING, bathing.

like to sit in a tub….to even own a tub.

its something I’ve never done before and i associate it with luxury.

i would love it if word searches were a competitive sport, id be so good at it.

same thing with sudoku, I’m not great at it but i will grow to be.

so the strategy is I’m building my own world.

sometimes I wonder how many coins I would have on subway surfers if I never deleted the game off my devices in 2013

i could really be a normal person and just get a diary or something but this feels sm better.

i think its very befitting for me to become a Minecraft or general gaming YouTuber when i retire.

as someone who really doesn’t like when social media creators “sell courses/eBooks”, I’ve given into this one particular package on complete impulse, I will keep you updated.

i don’t see the appeal with chicken & waffles. it does not taste good to me at all.

as someone who rl wants to be hot and mysterious, now is rl not the time. i gotta have like 5 ig pages and 2 yt channels rn.

im better at spelling than a lot of people but there are just some words that just get me. like jewelry

the gap between the artist i am now and the artist i am to be is wide. but i change the external factors like buying more gear and changing my style but the internal gotta change too!

bro ian never been a sweets person, always preferred savory stuff but bro a pastry??? I’d give up a lot for a good pastry. except for pie…warm fruit is not the move.

i lied. i just really like donuts and croissants. (1/1/26)

ok so i made sweet potatoes for the first time and im scared to try em, they smell good but i just don’t know what to expect. and the fact that its so orange is kinda freaking me out idky.

i should probably just share with y’all my intelligent thoughts…

I don’t think I’m where I need to be for it yet but I’d love to work with/under Isaia Huron one day.

doing gigs for people has become a pain in my side. idk if its laziness or something deeper.

i really would love to switch back to apple music but Spotify is free for me right now.

i did it anyway. wow

in my head I’m a great, but its not about what’s in your head, it’s about what you do. the only people in your head are you and God.

Alexander by Rex Orange County…good story.